Every day I impulsively turn sideways and look in the bedroom mirror at the big bulge around my midsection. I remember how taut and gigantic it was back in March, right before my son made his big entrance into this place. By comparison, it’s small now, but I was hoping I wouldn’t look pregnant at all.
I expected that as soon as I was healed up I’d be back to the gym doing inversions, wheel pose, Body Pump, spinning, and all the other things I genuinely missed. Weeks and then months went by and my midsection didn’t pop back the way I was expecting.
My doctor confirmed my three plus finger diastasis recti and told me to just wait until my last kid and she could do a C-section and stitch me back together (no, thanks!). She said if I didn’t opt for surgery I was just going to look pregnant forever. My upper back started to tingle, my lower back spasm.
I signed up for the Mutu course, but had trouble sticking with it. I don’t have Facebook so I can’t be part of their community of moms. I started to spiral, feeling that I’d lost a part of myself, trapped between wanting to be fit and not wanting to hurt myself further.
So that’s where this post leaves me. I hope that someone else out there with a diastasis recti reads this and finds some camaraderie with me in this journey. I am going to start the Mutu course by Wendy Powell again from scratch and post my updates here. I don’t plan on doing Tupler, but I may change my mind depending on if I see results with Mutu.